Never Can Say Goodbye June 26, 2009

RIP Michael Jackson

Yesterday we lost a musical ICON/LEGEND/MEGASTAR when we lost Michael Jackson.  I was shocked into a stupor and into denial, as were many people, because honestly he seemed incapable of death, if that makes any sense.  I just never even thought about him dying.  How do you say goodbye to someone who has decades of music that was the soundtrack to your life?  How do you say goodbye to an era?  From the days of being a cutie pie in the Jackson 5 to being  a revolutionary solo artist, Michael Jackson forever changed music and videos.  Share some of your favorite songs/thoughts/memories of the King of Pop.

best dancer ever

Crying as I watched the tribute shows and videos, it really hit me as to how many of this man’s songs were ingrained in me.  It’d be nearly impossible to pick a favorite, as they were so diverse and spaced out.  I’d have to go by age/era or at least by Michael look(young black boy, black teen, hispanic young adult, white man, etc…).   This is  a tribute to my LOVE and admiration for the guy who made music worth listening to for decades.  Not to mention, have you seen that smile? He deserves accolades just for that beautiful smile.

Favorites:

young Michael/Jackson Five era

When Ben came on the radio today as I was driving, I seriously almost had an accident since I was crying so much.  This beautiful song already was a tear-jerker to the inner sap in me, and then with the circumstances?  I was practically inconsolable.  This, with Who’s Loving You; Music and Me; and I’ll Be There have always been my favorites from a young Michael.  They are songs that I can hear 1000000000 times and still perk up in excitement and cherish.  I still can’t believe that he’s gone…that angelic voice of his youth is the stuff that dreams are made of.

Thriller Era Michael

Hands down, BEAT IT was my favorite.  Oh man, that catchy tune and he was soooo cute.   He was a total cutie in Thriller as well, and that video is by far the most influential video ever.  If you check out a list of how many times it’s been used in pop culture, it will blow you away.

BAD era/young adult hispanic look

my favorite MJ

My very first foray into Michael Jackson Mania was with my cousin who was in her late teens/early 20s around the time of the BAD and then DANGEROUS cds.  When I say that she was obsessed, it’s an understatement.  It was so bad that as a child (around 4-6), I actually thought that she was dating him because his was the only male name that I heard from her, she had his face plastered all over her walls and dressers, his music was the only thing that she listened to and she called him her boyfriend.  So of course young me really thought he was and I was so happy for her.  BAD still remains my favorite cd of his, from the simple fact of it was the soundtrack of my young years and I saw the videos on total repeat (you know she had every video and his little movies like Moonwalker on vhs).  My favorite song has always been BAD and that video along with him in SPEED DEMON (I can only describe him as beautiful in that video.  His smile was on a whole different level, and this was where the surgery was perfect and where he should have stopped.  Face still moved naturally, everything was gorgeous) set me on my path to being infatuated with light skinned/long haired men all through my teen days years later.  I hadn’t even made the connection until I thought about how many of my exes looked similar to that style.  God, I still want to lick the screen whenever BAD comes on; the clothes, the confidence/swagger, the dances….mmm, he could have SO got it back then.    My other  favorite song from that CD would have to be THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL.  I always get a smile when it comes on.  DIRTY DIANA and ANOTHER PART OF ME are also great hits from that cd.  I like the BAD cd even better than the record breaking THRILLER.

If nothing else, Michael Jackson was distinctive and will never be duplicated (as hard as most try…I’m looking at you, Chris Brown, Usher, and Ne-yo, among others).  His reputation may have been tarnished in the last 15 years, but his music and cultural impact speaks for itself.  He was the first black artist “allowed” on MTV, revolutionized the way music videos were done, spawned fashion trends that defined a decade, and set many a heart afire (well, you know, until a certain point where his appearance became quite…bad).  I wish that his personal life could have been as rewarding as the professional life, but with a rough childhood and what seems to have been body dysmorphic disorder, that goal of peace in life was sadly never to be reached and it saddens me that he was never truly happy even though he made so many happy.

What really saddens me and makes me want to hug him is how misunderstood I feel that he was.  Everything personal conspired against the poor man.  First his dad was an abusive psycho jerk and he was deprived a childhood which made him fascinated with being a kid later in life.  Then came the issues that made him so unhappy with his physical.  Being called “big nose” by his dad, a broken nose and botched surgery to fix it, hair catching on fire  and needing reconstructive surgery, vitiligo….how much can one person take?    So no wonder he liked being around kids, as they were probably the only ones who didn’t judge him or expect something in return for friendship.  Interesting how molestation charges only came up once the kid’s dad and Michael fell out and the dad said “I will ruin his life, it will be a win win for me” meaning he’d get money and destroy Michael’s life.  Because as we all saw, even if falsly accused of something like that, you never bounce back.  Then that opened the door for other leeches to come forward with the same type of bs.  For a man who is in the guiness book of world records for charitable work, a known patron for children, and a shy sweetheart, I just don’t  see him having touched those kids inappropriately.  I hate that it ruined his life and wish that so many things could have been different.  Such talent and such musical genius and all some can talk about is the weirdness that happened later.  No wonder he felt so alone.

I somehow never thought that this day would come, but goodbye to the King of Pop, Michael Jackson.  You were one-in-a-million and I know that I’m not alone in saying that you will be missed.  We may have never understood you and it didn’t seem like you understood yourself, but the passion and dedication you put into your craft was undeniable and inspiring to all.  You “thrilled” us and indeed, are “gone too soon”.  RIP to the gloved one.

Candy Girls May 3, 2009

E! has a new show called Candy Girls that follows the lives of some hip hop video models, their glamour agency Bella, and the owner of the agency Danielle and her “assistant/bff” Kysha.  Yet another show that embarrasses black women as being argumentative and ridiculous.

Kysha is an ignorant loser who shouldn’t be near anyone’s business.  You would think that she was Danielle’s enemy instead of her best friend.  She doesn’t do her job well at all, no one likes her but Danielle, and she has an annoying voice.  She doesn’t respect her best friend’s business at all as evident of her sending the models to the wrong address, always arguing with everyone, treating Danielle like she has no respect for her, and just being an overall nuisance who really is showing her envy. She is showing her jealousy of her best friend’s success and seems like she WISHES she could be a successful video girl but that chick doesn’t have all that great of a face or attitude.  what a womp loser.

Danielle needs a backbone.  She likes picking pretty girls and making them “famous” but she has NO business acumen.  everyone around there knows that they can run all over her.  she’s the prettiest girl on the show but needs to get a spine.  Wake up girl!  Kysha is a snake and I’m glad that you fired her and hope that you maintain that.  I honestly wouldn’t have her trifling ass as a friend, but that’s up to you.  True definition of a frenemy.

edit* wow, okay, must just be solely for ratings and not a look into the life, because there’s no way that Danielle could know that everyone hates Kysha and then put her in the house with the other girls and think that’d be a good idea.  wow, idiot.

My Ideal Movie Cast April 6, 2009

So I’m sitting here writing on my book and thought that it would be very fun to plot out which celebrities would be perfect for each role.  As I get it finished, I’ll tell more about it plot wise and you guys definitely will be first to know when it’s published!  I can’t wait to have a hard copy in my hands.   Don’t you always read and say “hmm, if this were a movie, such and such would be PERFECT!”  I know that I always do that and hey, if my book is ever turned into a movie (fingers crossed!) here’s who I’d love to play the characters:

Jasmyn Precor:  main character, wardrobe stylist, pretty and creative, nicknamed Black Barbie, lives in LA

-Kelly Rowland would be Jasmyn come to life, honestly.  She looks just like I imagine Jasmyn.  Now can she act well enough?

If Kelly happens to be busy or *gasp* doesn’t want the role, Gabrielle Union is a close second

Jesse Knight:  Jasmyn’s love interest, actor

-Cam Gigandet would be a great Jesse.  As long as he’s blonde, he’d be a hot, good actor to play him.  Mmm, mm

Kimber DeMarco: Jasmyn’s best friend from college, Sexy model/designer/vixen, half Italian half Cuban, lives in Miami

-Eva Mendes allll the way embodies Kimber.

if Eva couldn’t do it, then looks wise I wouldn’t mind Megan Fox because she’s like the most beautiful girl in Hollywood right now and has a saucy sexy look.  However, I want someone with more of latin vibe, who has an accent.  But if she can convincingly do it, i’m all for it!

Natalie Monroe: Jasmyn’s hard working good friend in LA.  Has the best intentions but ends up betraying Jasmyn

-i’ve switched so much on the look of Natalie that I still don’t solidly have “her” in mind like I do with the other characters.   Right now, Jada Pinkett could be a good match as mentor/know it all older friend

and last but not least, Laura Lisle.  She’s Jesse’s current girlfriend, pretty hollywood perfect golden girl.

-Hayden Panattiere would be perfect for this role.  She has just the right look

America’s Next Top Whiner March 25, 2009

Whine whine

So Tahlia is one of the WHINIEST people i’ve ever watched on top model.  She claims to want to be a role model, but how?   okay, so she’s BURNED on 3/4th of her body.  That ALONE does not make you a role model; you have to be a person who people want to emulate, who they look up to, who is an amazing person.  Being burnt doesn’t automatically nominate you for sainthood, darling.  What a tart!

She was only on there for the burn factor anyway, she’s proving that she wasted her moment.  I mean goodness, get on there and be a strong beautiful woman who is burned and going to rock it.  Instead, she’s taken the opportunity to be a whiny loser.  Some role model

There IS a right time… March 12, 2009

This whole Chris Brown/Rihanna thing is utter madness.  He’s lost any bit of like I’ve had for him (Really, I only like two songs anyway, his voice annoys me and he seems immature) and she’s losing it by staying with him to help save the losers career.  Either she’s massively dumb and still in love, or his camp is paying her off to help make him look good so he can save his career, because surely if she’s with him, his fans should stay with him?  yes?  BLAH

What I find most ironic is that they both have songs that perfectly go with the situation, if only they had listened.  Chris, there IS a right time to SAY GOODBYE and that’s surely before you make someone look like they ran their face into a Mack truck.  Come on, the lyrics were right there, sung and MEMORIZED by you…couldn’t you have listened?

There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

You could have just said goodbye.  Everyone would have been sad and said “aww, but they were so cute” but you wouldn’t come across as a demon child now and you’d still have advertiser’s and parents respect.

And beautiful Rihanna, are you really that dense that you are staying with him?  You are GORGEOUS, i’d kill for your eyes and figure.  There are plenty of men who would kill for a sexy island gal with a lilt to your voice.  Come on, not like you are poor, with 5 kids, HAVING to stay with some man so you don’t end up homeless.  Get real!  Your face is pretty much your career, your looks just as much as your singing has made you.  Covergirl, Gucci, Clinique, and the list goes on wouldn’t want some battered and blue chica on their products, you HAVE to think think think about this stuff, what about next time, when he doesn’t just threaten to kill you, it actually happens?

Once again, YOU too have a perfect song for this situation, care to listen to it?

You look so dumb right now
Standing’ outside my house
Trying’ to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
And don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining’

Why do people never listen to something that’s right in their own ear, in their own mind?  You have the song right there, you’ve sung it plenty….and yet, it never dawned on you that you may need to follow it?  Please pretty girl, step AWAY from the douchebag. You have young, impressionable fans who will think it’s okay to let some dude whoop on them.

no one should go from this:

to THIS because of some man:

Gotta Look Good For LA October 21, 2008

I’m doing the Special K diet for 2 weeks, just bought my cereal yesterday.  The vanilla almond cereal is soooo yummy!  I want to try the cinnamon pecan as well.  I need to get back out there and be a contender, so it’s time to get my self in shape, narrow this waist, and tone up.

I have a couple of workout dvds to do and will hopefully join the gym with my daddy.  I’m going to visit LA for 8 days in november, then hopefully moving there within the next 6 months, so it’s ON for getting lovely.  I also have apple cider vinegar pills too for weight maintenance and slim diet tea.  All of that should regulate my system and get me on the right track.  Oh I can’t wait for my waist to be in the 20’s.

In other fashion news, I am REALLY digging Jessica Simpson’s shoes/handbag lines!  I bought the most fab purse from her called the Limelight in color pine and it looks like it cost no less than $300.  It’s so luxe, I may have to rock that purse tonight to dinner with my girly Ashley.

it’s like this, but a deep teal color that is so chic for fall/winter and you know that jewel tones are in.

My daddy bought me a new ring/necklace set from Swarvoski that I wanted for months now.  It was a surprise and I am so in love with it and appreciative that he got it from me.  The thing is MAJOR blingage for my Hollywood life.

it’s called the Chic ring, and I must agree!  The necklace is small and has a couple of gems so as not to compete or overpower.  Ahh, I love it!  What do you think?

well worth watching about the future president October 2, 2008

Reunited and It Feels So Good September 20, 2008

Sometimes, in this busy world, we don’t connect with our friends enough.  We lose track, stick to our iPods, work work work, just things that keep us isolated.  So I just wanted to post this video (cutest thing ever) to remind you to get out there and reconnect, no matter how long it’s been

Total Big Sister Moment September 8, 2008

I went to see my little brother at his college’s battle of the bands at Soldier Field in Chicago against West Virginia State University and even though he got slaughtered in football, they murdered WVSU in battle of the bands, lol.  He plays the trumpet, so it’s all about the band anyway! Go Central State!  It’s so weird that my lil brother is off at school, doing his thing.  i’m so used to being the one away at college, now it’s over, and his turn.  It’s so weird.

I’m very proud of them though, and hope that they keep on doing well.  As long as he stays determined and focused, get good grades, and kill on that trumpet of his, he will have a very proud big sister

here’s the performance:

Black Barbie September 3, 2008

I am absolutely in love with the song “Black Barbie” by Little Jackie.  In my opinion, she should make more songs that sound like this, it has a gorgeous sound, hilarious lyrics, funky and chic at the same time.  Awesome work, Little Jackie.  This sounds nothing like the rest of your stuff, which is cool and all, but I definitely give kudos for this song.